Really?! I mean, REALLY?!!

I'm going to vent.  I'm really really really sick of rebooting this blog and starting over with big plans and having something weird happen with me that prevents me from sticking with a plan.  WHY CAN'T I BE NORMAL.

I'm thinking of changing my blog to "how to be normal by the time I"m 32

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After I started my "Couch to 5k" I started to get light headed every two hours.  So I pretty much did 1 week of the 9 week program and had to stop.  Finally, my lightheaded issues went away this last week.  I started on the treadmill again on Monday.  It.Felt.Great.  Yeehaw!  But then the week got busy and by the time I hit Friday I was feeling sick again.  Now it's Sunday and I spent yesterday fighting off lightheadedness, heart palpitations, chest paint, dizziness, etc.  I'm afraid to get on the treadmill today because if I don't feel well, I'm going to SCREAM.  I absolutely need to lose weight.  I have gained back EVERYTHING I lost this Spring plus a 1lb.  And I managed to gain it ALL back in the last 4 weeks.  The answer is clear to me that exercise is what is keeping me from becoming a giant mushy mess, but my body is cooperating with me and allowing me to feel well enough to do so...

And what does the doctor say?  I haven't been to see him because I don't feel like paying $20 to hear that there is nothing wrong with me. 

I'm tired, I'm stressed, I'm HUGE and I only have 1 pair of jeans that fit.  

And I don't know what to do anymore.